Holding my shoulder hard. Putting him in my mouth. Crying because I’m in trouble for something to do with staying at the neighbours too long. He’s masturbating. Sitting in his chair in the lounge.. I’m quite upset and not wanting to do this. I’m 8 or 9, it’s before the neighbours moved away so I know how it goes, just waiting for it to finish. I don’t want to be there.

What does it mean or matter

Are you going to lie to me about it? About what you think, what you think about me?