My story doesn’t make sense. How can two or three words from a book tell the story? Where are my words? At times I don’t have words, at time I can see the words but they don’t seem adequate to explain, at times I know the words but struggle to get them translated externally, at times i feel too disgusting or ashamed or threatened or afraid to say them. At times I think my words will harm so have to keep them away from people.