You loved me? You loved me more than my mother loved me? That I was special? Only special people can do this and one day I will understand?

Oh hang on. That I had a funny face? That I wasn’t the smart one? That I never tried hard enough? And that I’m just like my mother? Can I be trusted?

But my mother said I was just like you? Moody, knock kneed, sneaky and not to be trusted. Oh yes, and particularly ungrateful. Ungrateful to her for bringing me into this world and providing a good home. Always ungrateful.

You probably did love me.