Sometimes I have a sense of cold enormous fear. The occasional times when I am not able to isolate incidents and separate them from me, and they form together to make a whole landscape picture of me and my life. Its a bit of a surprise and unexpected.

Because even though it is a challenge to constantly manage segments and incidents, and keep them in their boundaries not joined up (and obviously, I mainly avoid managing them to resolve them), it is different to seeing the whole. That feels like losing too much control and getting sucked into the landscape.

Yet I’m trapped in each segment and incident anyway.