How many before and after events do people generally have in their life?

What about the no befores, because it always was. Always waiting, always unsure, unsure about everything, always awkward. Maybe it wasn’t like that but it seems like it was.

What mood would my father be in. Was he staying in. Was he drinking. Would he be watching tv or would he go to the shed. Would I have to sit on his lap. Would he come to the bathroom. Would he touch me. Would he love me.