I feel sick and not in control internally. So many thoughts and ideas and images. 

If I was branded as being like my father, I acted liked my father, I connected to my father, was abused by my father, hated my father, and negated by my mother, how can I pretend to be normal? My ‘functioning’ negates everything and then I can’t explain what happened. 

Talking about the relationship I had with them hits how lonely I felt and how I thought all the time there was something wrong with me. There was something wrong with me! 

There is something so wrong with me.