Did I confront him? 

Rational brain: No. I didn’t. I was too afraid of him. Afraid while I lived there even after he stopped, afraid after I’d left that he still had control of me, afraid as an adult that he could still physically hurt me. 

Irrational brain: was I supposed to? Did I do something wrong? I should have, dam I fucked up. I could have made things different. Is that an accusation? See there was something about me.if I had confronted him it would be out in the open. I didn’t so it doesn’t exist, people won’t believe me, people don’t believe me, it’s too late for people to believe me. I am a vile disgusting slut and now I know thats what you think.

Physical sensation: I feel sick. Head whirring. Keep mouth shut. Try to be strong. Turn face off.