I’m just managing to hold my anxiety in check, I’ve been on the verge of panic for the past 5 hours. I can’t seem to shift it. I don’t know what else to do.
I don’t know how to let it go.
I can’t move out of this.
I am too unwell to work this stuff out. I don’t know how to get my thoughts, images, smells, feelings out. I can’t fix me. I don’t believe I will be able to be different, to be normal. How can someone even know or understand the experiences, I cannot explain them. Maybe I can never believe if someone believes or actually hears me.
It seems more logical to stop trying. This is when I feel backed into a corner and just wanting out of everything. My history is bigger and so much more powerful than me and I think we are kidding ourselves if we can’t see that. I have no way of moving away from it.
If I Talk 