If I Talk

Do I reinforce my loneliness by not seeking help when I desperately want it, not admitting that I feel overwhelming need for reassurance and validation. That then confirms my belief that I am too broken, unworthy and hopeless. And hopelessness is a long-term companion, one that I have not broken with even in time when all appears ‘hopeful’. Which is another reason to withdraw because of the shame of hopelessness and the shame of responsibility. And if I feel that shame, I must have something to be ashamed of.