Is there something wrong with me for wanting to talk about it?
I question it not because of the usual lens of needing to disguise that disgusting part of me, but because I am actually confused what the push is for me to get it out. It goes against everything I have done for most of my life. It’s connected to needing to be believed but not believing I will really be believed.
Do I have unrealistic expectations as to what will be achieved?
Am I even capable?
What if I regret it?
What if there are repercussions?
I will never be able to hurt him
If I Talk 