I don’t feel safe. I’m not unsafe, but I feel unsafe
I’m stuck in it, it is stuck in me
The horror of being blindsided by my sisters partner , not breathing, panic, pain. Why the fuck me. I thought I got away.
What does it matter
Just one of several for this fucked up piece. How disgusting must I have looked, how disgusting did I become
I don’t know how to stop this, fix this, be different, be better. Tell me what I need to do, I don’t know.
I have become more of a problem than the solution. My hopelessness and incompetentness is seeping to others and I can’t stop it. Perhaps I could just let it go. What a waste of everyone’s time and effort.
If I Talk 