I can’t shake the feeling of futility and hopelessness. I feel so useless, I don’t fit.
I don’t want to be here, I don’t want to be this person.
It seems like I have exhausted my focus and will to change, feeling that I cant. I really don’t want this. I would hope to sort things out soon, I know I should wait until they are done.
What a fuck up. What a waste of time.
If I Talk 