If I Talk

I’m sorry for being like this

I’m sorry for being depressed

Sorry for what I might do and the impact that has on you

Sorry for not getting better

Sorry for not being able to trust you, believe you, for being too broken

Sorry for not being able to tell you everything, it’s not because I don’t want to

Sorry for things not working out

Every day there is something in the media, it makes me feel more isolated and broken that those stories are out and I’m a secret that can’t talk, that I am so trapped in it

Why can’t I change